i am mostly making this journal entry to share two photos i took, both at golden hour. one of them is of some geese, and i took it today while taking a long walk in the park with a friend. the other one was taken near central park between some a/v shifts last week.
i also will write a little bit about what's been going on, but since it's already getting late, i will be brief.
we played the show in boston the weekend before last and it went well! i still have not succeeded in gathering any visual evidence yet, but when i do i will make a blog post about it. i really enjoyed the change of pace of performing live music/audio instead of visuals, and i will likely try out a few variations of similar ideas, letting andrei handle the visuals for the next few collaborative sets we do.
then, i spent 3 days in the city last week and did a bunch of a/v work. some of it required a radical shift of my sleep schedule, but i seem to have handled it pretty well. i spent a lot of time reading in central park in the long break between setup and strike calls. and i think that working long shifts doing very physical work actually jump started my metabolism, in a good way?? really did not expect that but it seems to have happened.
this past weekend, i did very little besides clean my (office) room (ending the reign of post-show chaos), reset my general systems/to-do lists, and spend many hours reading in my hammock. it was incredibly warm and nice outside, in the shade beneath the maple tree in our backyard. i have been very engrossed in the book i'm reading, but it's very long so i'm still just barely halfway done. even when i am doing other things, in my mind i'm looking forward to when i get the chance to read more.
i found out that a thing i was really hoping would happen is not going to happen. and not only that, but i also found out that the chances of it happening were much lower than i previously thought. sorry for being vague, but i don't want to go into specifics here right now. what i will say is: i've tried taking a few different paths in my "career", and i'm still searching for what feels like a right direction to take for the longer term future.
a part of me is jealous of people who have been doing the same thing for many years in a row, such that other people can look at their job history and see them as qualified for something. but then again, i can't change the part of my personality that seeks breadth over depth and can't stay on a single narrow path. and i think that it is actually kind of a positive quality, though it's not one that society seems to reward. i have some ideas of things i might try to do, but i'm not sure yet. thankfully, things are fine in the short term so i've got time to stew on it.
