for some reason, i was unable to get a good night of sleep for the past 2 nights. so after waking up this morning feeling like someone had hit me over the head with a brick, i decided to call out of work and take a day off to rest up.

i think some of it was related to normal hormone cycles that just hit me a little extra hard this time (a known reason for occasional sleep issues), but i was also a little bit frazzled from a lot of things happening at once. specifically, yesterday, we had a new internet connection installed at our apartment, and a change in network details ended up necessitating a lot of work from me to track down new IP addresses and reconnect things. while i know what i would do differently next time, and this was partly self-inflicted due to having too many networked devices in my home, i was unable to stop myself from just trying to fix everything right away. perhaps my impulse control was weakened by my first night of poor sleep, or perhaps it was just normal neurosis, but i "had" to work on it then and there, despite a part of me knowing i needed more rest than i was allowing myself.

i did actually get everything working, and now this journal should stay publicly accessible despite no longer having a static IP address (yay!), plus all my little networked home automation toys are back online. but the lesson to myself is clear. it's sometimes a helpful habit to feel a need to clean/fix/organize things that don't seem right (my tools stay organized, my email inbox stays clear). but sometimes it's not helpful!

if i had just taken it easy and given myself a proper wind-down in the evening, would i have made it to work today? not sure, but i know that it would have helped me feel a bit better regardless.

anyway, i didn't get the chance to write in this journal again this past sunday evening, due to the aforementioned "a lot of things happening!" thankfully, some of the things that were happening were fun.

ok, now, it's time to embrace my tiredness and chill out a bit this evening. bye for now.